Who cares?

I need to tell you something. And I'm not telling you this because I'm drunk. Well I am drunk. But I'm not telling you this because I'm drunk. Well I am drunk. But I'm not telling you this because I'm drunk. Well I am drunk... wait a minute.... where am I?

Anyway... here it is.... be strong. I can't be with you anymore. Especially when I'm drunk. Why? I get to like you when I'm drunk! Ooops. That didn't turn out right. Lemme start over. I can't be with you. ESPECIALLY when I'm drunk. Why? That's because I become less inhibited. I let my guard down. When I'm sober, I can handle my emotions. But when I'm under the influence, I'm me. And it's tough being me. Being me means a lot of people are watching. A lot of people are judging me. And I can't be myself. I want to be with you. Alone. Be who I am. But I can't. I can handle it --- when I'm sober, of course. When I can think straight. When I can justify to myself, that I don't need you. That you don't need me. That you are no good to me.That we can live apart --- without being hard on ourselves. But the reality is, I can't.

I drown this resentment, in alcohol. And the more I drown it, the more I long for you. The more I realize that --- it is you I need. Whether with alcohol or not. All I can say is... I can't seem to live without you. That I need you. Even if you're not right for me. Even if the whole world says I shouldn't even touch you. The hell with them. I'm going to follow my heart. Even if my heart will hurt in the end. Even if my heart stops. The important thing is I followed my heart....

I love you, crispy pata!

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